15.036
putradarśanaparva
Section concerning the seeing of the son
janamejaya uvāca॥
Janamejaya said.
vanavāsaṁ gate vipra dhṛtarāṣṭre mahīpatau। sabhārye nṛpaśārdūle vadhvā kuntyā samanvite ॥15-36-1॥
O brāhmaṇa, when Dhṛtarāṣṭra the king went into exile in the forest with his wife, and was accompanied by queen Kuntī—O tiger among kings—(this happened). (15-36-1)
vidure cāpi saṁsiddhe dharmarājaṁ vyapāśrite। vasatsu pāṇḍu-putreṣu sarveṣv āśrama-maṇḍale ॥15-36-2॥
After Vidura attained perfection, and Dharma-rāja (Yudhishthira) had been entrusted there, while all the sons of Pandu dwelt in the group of hermitages. (15-36-2)
yattadāścaryamiti vai kariṣyāmītyuvāca ha। vyāsaḥ paramatejasvī maharṣistadvadasva me ॥15-36-3॥
He said, "That which is the wonder, indeed I shall do thus." Vyāsa, the most resplendent great sage, please tell that to me. (15-36-3)
vanavāse ca kauravyaḥ kiyantaṃ kālam acyutaḥ। yudhiṣṭhiro narapatir nyavasat sajano dvija ॥15-36-4॥
O twice-born, O steadfast one, how long did Yudhishthira, the king, descendant of Kuru, dwell with his people in the forest? (15-36-4)
kimāhārāś ca te tatra sasainyā nyavasan prabho। sāntaḥpurā mahātmāna iti tad brūhi me'nagha॥15-36-5॥
What foods did they consume, and how did those great souls reside there with their armies and consorts? Tell me that, O sinless one. (15-36-5)
vaiśampāyana uvāca॥
Vaiśampāyana said.
te'anujñātās tadā rājan kururājena pāṇḍavāḥ। vividhāny annapānāni viśrāmya anubhavanti te ॥15-36-6॥
O king, having been permitted by the King of the Kurus, the Pāṇḍavas, after resting, enjoy various kinds of food and drink. (15-36-6)
māsam ekaṁ vijahrus te sa-sainyāntaḥ-purā vane। atha tatra āgamat vyāsaḥ yathā-uktam te mayā anagha ॥15-36-7॥
They spent one month in the forest together with their army and the inner attendants. Then, O sinless one, Vyāsa arrived there just as I have told you. (15-36-7)
tathā tu teṣāṃ sarveṣāṃ kathābhir nṛpa-sannidhau। vyāsam anvāsatāṃ rājan ājagmur munayo 'pare ॥15-36-8॥
Thus, O king, while all of them remained with Vyāsa, in the presence of the king with various stories, other sages arrived. (15-36-8)
nāradaḥ parvataś caiva devalaś ca mahātapāḥ। viśvāvasus tumbaruś ca citrasenaś ca bhārata ॥15-36-9॥
Nārada, Parvata, Devala, the great ascetics, Viśvāvasu, Tumburu, and Citrasena, O Bhārata. (15-36-9)
teṣām api yathā-nyāyaṃ pūjāṃ cakre mahā-manāḥ। dhṛtarāṣṭrābhy-anujñātaḥ kuru-rājo yudhiṣṭhiraḥ॥15-36-10॥
Having been permitted by Dhritarashtra, the great-minded Kuru king Yudhishthira honored even them according to propriety. (15-36-10)
niṣedus te tataḥ sarve pūjāṃ prāpya yudhiṣṭhirāt। āsaneṣv atha puṇyeṣu barhiṣkeṣu vareṣu ca॥15-36-11॥
Thereafter, all of them, having received honor from Yudhishthira, sat down on auspicious, excellent seats made of sacred grass. (15-36-11)
teṣu tatropaviṣṭeṣu sa tu rājā mahāmatiḥ। pāṇḍuputraiḥ parivṛto niṣasāda kurūdvahaḥ॥15-36-12॥
There, among those who were seated, the great-minded king, surrounded by the sons of Paṇḍu, the glory of the Kurus, sat down. (15-36-12)
gāndhārī caiva kuntī ca draupadī sātvatī tathā। striyaś cānyās tathānyābhiḥ sahopaviviśus tataḥ॥15-36-13॥
Gāndhārī, Kuntī, Draupadī, and Sātvati, along with other women, also sat down there together. (15-36-13)
teṣāṁ tatra kathā divyā dharmiṣṭhāś cābhavan nṛpa। ṛṣīṇāṁ ca purāṇānāṁ devāsura-vimiśritāḥ ॥15-36-14॥
O king, there were among them divine and highly righteous narratives, and stories of sages and the ancient ones, mingled with gods and asuras. (15-36-14)
tataḥ kathānte vyāsaḥ taṃ prajñā-cakṣuṣam īśvaram। provāca vadatāṃ śreṣṭhaḥ punar eva sa tad vacaḥ॥ prīyamāṇaḥ mahā-tejāḥ sarva-veda-vidāṃ varaḥ॥15-36-15॥
Then, at the end of the discourse, Vyāsa—the foremost among speakers, the best of all knowers of the Vedas, of great brilliance—being pleased, again addressed that lord possessed of the eye of wisdom with these words. (15-36-15)
viditaṃ mama rājendra yat te hṛdi vivakṣitam। dahyamānasya śokena tava putrakṛtena vai ॥15-36-16॥
O king, I know what you wished to say in your heart, as you are indeed being consumed by grief for your son. (15-36-16)
gāndhāryāścaiva yad duḥkhaṃ hṛdi tiṣṭhati pārthiva। kuntyāśca yan mahārāja draupadyāśca hṛdi sthitam ॥15-36-17॥
O king, the sorrow that remains in the heart of Gandhari, and also that which is in the heart of Kunti and Draupadi, O great king. (15-36-17)
yac ca dhārayate tīvraṃ duḥkhaṃ putravināśajam. subhadrā kṛṣṇabhaginī tac cāpi viditaṃ mama ॥15-36-18॥
And the intense suffering, arising from the loss of her son, which Subhadrā, the sister of Kṛṣṇa, endures—that too is known to me. (15-36-18)
śrutvā samāgamam imaṁ sarveṣāṁ vastato nṛpa। saṁśayacchedanāyāhaṁ prāptaḥ kauravanandana ॥15-36-19॥
O king, having truly heard of this assembly of all, I have arrived, O delight of the Kauravas, for the removal of doubt. (15-36-19)
ime ca devagandharvāḥ sarve caiva maharṣayaḥ। paśyantu tapaso vīryam adya me cirasambhṛtam॥15-36-20॥
Let all these devas and gandharvas, as well as all the great sages, witness today the energy of my long-accumulated austerity. (15-36-20)
tad ucyatāṃ mahābāho kaṃ kāmaṃ pratiśāmi te। pravaṇo'smi varaṃ dātuṃ paśya me tapaso balam ॥15-36-21॥
O mighty-armed, let that wish be spoken which you want—I am ready to grant you a boon. See the power of my austerity. (15-36-21)
evam-uktaḥ sa rājendraḥ vyāsena-amita-buddhinā। muhūrtam-iva sañcintya vacanāya-upacakrame ॥15-36-22॥
Thus addressed by Vyāsa of limitless intelligence, the king, after reflecting for a moment, began to speak. (15-36-22)
dhanyo'smy-anugṛhīto'smi saphalaṃ jīvitaṃ ca me। yan me samāgamo'dya iha bhavadbhiḥ saha sādhubhiḥ॥15-36-23॥
I am blessed, I am favored, and my life is fulfilled because today I have met you here, together with other virtuous ones. (15-36-23)
adya cāpyavagacchāmi gatimiṣṭāmihātmanaḥ। bhavadbhirbrahmakalpairyatsameto'ham tapodhanāḥ॥15-36-24॥
Today, I also understand the desired path here for the self, which I have attained by joining with you, O ascetics equal to Brahmā. (15-36-24)
darśanādeva bhavatāṁ pūto'haṁ nātra saṁśayaḥ। vidyate na bhayaṁ cāpi paralokān mamānaghāḥ॥15-36-25॥
Truly, by just seeing you I have been purified; there is no doubt about this. Nor do I have any fear of the afterlife, O sinless ones. (15-36-25)
kiṁ tu tasya sudurbuddher mandasyāpanayair bhṛśam। dūyate me mano nityaṁ smarataḥ putragṛddhinaḥ॥15-36-26॥
However, my mind is exceedingly afflicted always as I remember that very dull, ill-intentioned one and his greed for sons. (15-36-26)
apāpāḥ pāṇḍavā yena nikṛtāḥ pāpabuddhinā। ghātitā pṛthivī ceyaṃ sahasā sanaradvipā ॥15-36-27॥
By whom the blameless Pāṇḍavas were deceitfully wronged with a wicked mind, and this earth, along with men and elephants, was suddenly destroyed. (15-36-27)
rājānaś ca mahātmāno nānā-janapadeśvarāḥ। āgamya mama putrārthe sarve mṛtyuvaśaṃ gatāḥ ॥15-36-28॥
Kings, great-souled men, the lords of various lands—all came for my son's sake, and all have succumbed to death. (15-36-28)
ye te putrāṁś ca dārāṁś ca prāṇāṁś ca manasaḥ priyān। parityajya gatāḥ śūrāḥ pretarājaniveśanam ॥15-36-29॥
Those heroes who, abandoning sons, wives, their lives, and all that was dear to their minds, have departed to the abode of the king of the dead (Yama). (15-36-29)
kā nu teṣāṃ gatir brahman mitrārthe ye hatā mṛdhe। tathaiva putra-pautrāṇāṃ mama ye nihatā yudhi ॥15-36-30॥
O brāhman, what indeed is the fate of those who were slain in battle for the sake of a friend? Likewise, what is the fate of my sons and grandsons who were killed in battle? (15-36-30)
dūyate me mano'bhīkṣṇaṃ ghātayitvā mahā-balam। bhīṣmaṃ śāntanavaṃ vṛddhaṃ droṇaṃ ca dvija-sattamam ॥15-36-31॥
My mind is constantly distressed, having caused the death of the mighty and aged Bhīṣma, son of Śāntanu, and Droṇa, the foremost among brāhmaṇas. (15-36-31)
mama putreṇa mūḍhena pāpena suhṛdadviṣā। kṣayaṃ nītaṃ kulaṃ dīptaṃ pṛthivīrājyam icchatā ॥15-36-32॥
My son, deluded, sinful, a hater of friends, desiring the kingdom of the earth, has brought our illustrious family to ruin. (15-36-32)
etatsarvamanusmṛtya dahyamāno divāniśam। na śāntimadhigacchāmi duḥkhaśokasamāhataḥ ॥ iti me cintayānasya pitaḥ śarma na vidyate ॥15-36-33॥
Remembering all this, I am continually consumed day and night and, afflicted by pain and grief, do not find peace. Thus, O father, for me who is pondering, there is no comfort. (15-36-33)
