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युधिष्ठिर उवाच॥
Yudhishthira said.
न मां प्रीणयते राज्यं त्वय्येवं दुःखिते नृप। धिङ्मामस्तु सुदुर्बुद्धिं राज्यसक्तं प्रमादिनम् ॥१५-६-१॥
O king, when you are thus afflicted with sorrow, the kingdom does not please me. Fie upon me—let me, so very evil-minded, attached to the kingdom, and negligent, be condemned. (15-6-1)
योऽहं भवन्तं दुःखार्तमुपवासकृशं नृप। यताहारं क्षितिशयं नाविन्दं भ्रातृभिः सह ॥१५-६-२॥
O king, I did not find you, who are afflicted by suffering, emaciated by fasting, subsisting on little food, lying upon the ground, together with your brothers. (15-6-2)
अहोऽस्मि वञ्चितो मूढो भवता गूढबुद्धिना। विश्वासयित्वा पूर्वं मां यदिदं दुःखमश्नुथाः ॥१५-६-३॥
Oh, I have been deceived, made a fool by you with hidden intelligence. Previously you made me trust you, so that now you experience this suffering. (15-6-3)
किं मे राज्येन भोगैर्वा किं यज्ञैः किं सुखेन वा। यस्य मे त्वं महीपाल दुःखान्येतान्यवाप्तवान् ॥१५-६-४॥
What use to me is kingship, enjoyments, or even sacrifices and happiness, O ruler of the earth, when you—who are everything to me—have attained these sufferings? (15-6-4)
पीडितं चापि जानामि राज्यमात्मानमेव च। अनेन वचसा तुभ्यं दुःखितस्य जनेश्वर ॥१५-६-५॥
O lord of men, I know both the kingdom and myself have been afflicted, and by these words to you, who are sorrowful. (15-6-5)
भवान्पिता भवान्माता भवान्नः परमो गुरुः। भवता विप्रहीणा हि क्व नु तिष्ठामहे वयम् ॥१५-६-६॥
You are the father, you are the mother, you are our supreme teacher. Deprived of you, indeed, where indeed can we exist? (15-6-6)
औरसो भवतः पुत्रो युयुत्सुर्नृपसत्तम। अस्तु राजा महाराज यं चान्यं मन्यते भवान् ॥१५-६-७॥
O best of kings, your own legitimate son who desires to fight—let him, and whomever else you, O great king, consider, be king. (15-6-7)
अहं वनं गमिष्यामि भवान्राज्यं प्रशास्त्विदम्। न मामयशसा दग्धं भूयस्त्वं दग्धुमर्हसि ॥१५-६-८॥
I shall go to the forest; you should govern this kingdom. You ought not to burn me further with disgrace when I am already consumed by dishonor. (15-6-8)
नाहं राजा भवान्राजा भवता परवानहम्। कथं गुरुं त्वां धर्मज्ञमनुज्ञातुमिहोत्सहे ॥१५-६-९॥
I am not king; you are king; by you, I am dependent. How can I, here, permit you—my guru and knower of dharma? (15-6-9)
न मन्युर्हृदि नः कश्चिद्दुर्योधनकृतेऽनघ। भवितव्यं तथा तद्धि वयं ते चैव मोहिताः ॥१५-६-१०॥
O sinless one, none of us harbors any anger in our hearts because of Duryodhana; it is fate indeed—thus, both we and you have been deluded. (15-6-10)
वयं हि पुत्रा भवतो यथा दुर्योधनादयः। गान्धारी चैव कुन्ती च निर्विशेषे मते मम ॥१५-६-११॥
We are indeed your sons, just as Duryodhana and the others are; in my view, Gāndhārī and Kuntī, too, stand without distinction. (15-6-11)
स मां त्वं यदि राजेन्द्र परित्यज्य गमिष्यसि। पृष्ठतस्त्वानुयास्यामि सत्येनात्मानमालभे ॥१५-६-१२॥
If you, O king, abandon me and go, then I will follow you from behind; I bind myself to this vow with truth. (15-6-12)
इयं हि वसुसम्पूर्णा मही सागरमेखला। भवता विप्रहीणस्य न मे प्रीतिकरी भवेत् ॥१५-६-१३॥
This earth, though indeed filled with riches and girdled by the ocean, if bereft of the brāhmaṇa by you, would not be pleasing to me. (15-6-13)
भवदीयमिदं सर्वं शिरसा त्वां प्रसादये। त्वदधीनाः स्म राजेन्द्र व्येतु ते मानसो ज्वरः ॥१५-६-१४॥
O King, all this belongs to you; with my head (bowed), I entreat you. We are indeed subject to you—may the affliction of your mind pass away. (15-6-14)
भवितव्यमनुप्राप्तं मन्ये त्वां तज्जनाधिप। दिष्ट्या शुश्रूषमाणस्त्वां मोक्ष्यामि मनसो ज्वरम् ॥१५-६-१५॥
I think what was destined has come to pass, and you, O lord of those people, have arrived. By good fortune, as I serve you, I shall free my mind of its distress. (15-6-15)
धृतराष्ट्र उवाच॥
Dhṛtarāṣṭra said.
तापस्ये मे मनस्तात वर्तते कुरुनन्दन। उचितं हि कुलेऽस्माकमरण्यगमनं प्रभो ॥१५-६-१६॥
My mind, dear father, dwells on austerity, O joy of the Kurus. Indeed, it is proper for our lineage that we go to the forest, O lord. (15-6-16)
चिरमस्म्युषितः पुत्र चिरं शुश्रूषितस्त्वया। वृद्धं मामभ्यनुज्ञातुं त्वमर्हसि जनाधिप ॥१५-६-१७॥
O son, I have lived a long time and have long been cared for by you. You should now permit me, who am old, O lord of the people. (15-6-17)
वैशम्पायन उवाच॥
Vaiśampāyana said.
इत्युक्त्वा धर्मराजानं वेपमानः कृताञ्जलिम्। उवाच वचनं राजा धृतराष्ट्रोऽम्बिकासुतः ॥१५-६-१८॥
Having thus spoken to Dharmarāja, trembling and with joined palms, the king Dhṛtarāṣṭra, son of Ambikā, spoke as follows. (15-6-18)
सञ्जयं च महामात्रं कृपं चापि महारथम्। अनुनेतुमिहेच्छामि भवद्भिः पृथिवीपतिम् ॥१५-६-१९॥
I wish, with your help, to bring Sañjaya the minister and Kṛpa the great charioteer here, to pacify the king, the lord of the earth. (15-6-19)
ग्लायते मे मनो हीदं मुखं च परिशुष्यति। वयसा च प्रकृष्टेन वाग्व्यायामेन चैव हि ॥१५-६-२०॥
My mind indeed withers, and this mouth also becomes parched, truly due to advanced age and great exertion of speech. (15-6-20)
इत्युक्त्वा स तु धर्मात्मा वृद्धो राजा कुरूद्वहः। गान्धारीं शिश्रिये धीमान्सहसैव गतासुवत् ॥१५-६-२१॥
Thus, having spoken these words, the righteous-souled, aged king, the chief of the Kurus, he, wise, suddenly approached Gandhari as if his life had departed. (15-6-21)
तं तु दृष्ट्वा तथासीनं निश्चेष्टं कुरुपार्थिवम्। आर्तिं राजा ययौ तूर्णं कौन्तेयः परवीरहा ॥१५-६-२२॥
But having seen the Kuru king seated there motionless in that way, Kaunteya, the destroyer of enemy heroes, swiftly became distressed. (15-6-22)
युधिष्ठिर उवाच॥
Yudhiṣṭhira said.
यस्य नागसहस्रेण दशसङ्ख्येन वै बलम्। सोऽयं नारीमुपाश्रित्य शेते राजा गतासुवत् ॥१५-६-२३॥
He whose army, indeed, comprises a thousand elephants and ten thousand (soldiers), this king, having resorted to a woman, now lies as if lifeless. (15-6-23)
आयसी प्रतिमा येन भीमसेनस्य वै पुरा। चूर्णीकृता बलवता स बलार्थी श्रितः स्त्रियम् ॥१५-६-२४॥
He who formerly crushed the iron statue of Bhīmasena, indeed by might, now seeking strength, has taken refuge in a woman. (15-6-24)
धिगस्तु मामधर्मज्ञं धिग्बुद्धिं धिक्च मे श्रुतम्। यत्कृते पृथिवीपालः शेतेऽयमतथोचितः ॥१५-६-२५॥
Shame be upon me, a knower of unrighteousness; shame upon my intellect and upon my learning, for whose sake this protector of the earth now lies thus, not as is fitting. (15-6-25)
अहमप्युपवत्स्यामि यथैवायं गुरुर्मम। यदि राजा न भुङ्क्तेऽयं गान्धारी च यशस्विनी ॥१५-६-२६॥
I too will fast just as this elder of mine does, if the king does not eat, as will this Gandhari, the glorious woman. (15-6-26)
वैशम्पायन उवाच॥
Vaiśampāyana said.
ततोऽस्य पाणिना राजा जलशीतेन पाण्डवः। उरो मुखं च शनकैः पर्यमार्जत धर्मवित् ॥१५-६-२७॥
Then the king, the son of Pāṇḍu, who knew dharma, gently wiped his chest and face with cold water with his hand. (15-6-27)
तेन रत्नौषधिमता पुण्येन च सुगन्धिना। पाणिस्पर्शेन राज्ञस्तु राजा सञ्ज्ञामवाप ह ॥१५-६-२८॥
By the touch of the meritorious and fragrant hand endowed with gem-medicines, the king indeed regained consciousness. (15-6-28)
