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yudhiṣṭhiraśokaḥ
The grief of Yudhiṣṭhira.
yudhiṣṭhira uvāca॥
Yudhiṣṭhira said.
tathā mahātmanaḥ tasya tapasī ugre ca vartataḥ। anāthasya eva nidhanaṁ tiṣṭhat svasmāsu bandhuṣu॥15-46-1॥
Thus, while that great-souled one was engaged in severe austerities, death stood among us relatives just as it does for one who has no protector. (15-46-1)
durvijñeyā hi gatayaḥ puruṣāṇāṃ matā mama. yatra vaicitratvavīryo'sau dagdha evaṃ davāgninā ॥15-46-2॥
Indeed, I consider the paths of men to be difficult to understand, for there, Vichitravirya was burned in this way by a forest fire. (15-46-2)
yasya putraśataṃ śrīmadabhavadbāhuśālinaḥ। nāgāyutabalo rājā sa dagdho hi davāgninā॥15-46-3॥
The king, who had a hundred sons and was prosperous, endowed with strong arms and the strength of ten thousand elephants, was indeed burned by a forest fire. (15-46-3)
yaṃ purā paryavījan̄ta tālavṛntair varastriyaḥ। taṃ gṛdhrāḥ paryavījan̄ta dāvāgniparikālitam ॥15-46-4॥
The one whom noble women once fanned with palm-leaf fans, vultures now fan, his body burned by the forest fire. (15-46-4)
sūtamāgadhasaṅghaiś ca śayāno yaḥ prabodhyate। dharaṇyāṃ sa nṛpaḥ śete pāpasya mama karmabhiḥ ॥15-46-5॥
He, the king, who is awakened by groups of charioteers and bards while lying down, now lies on the earth due to my evil actions. (15-46-5)
na tu śocāmi gāndhārīṃ hataputrāṃ yaśasvinīm। patilokam anuprāptāṃ tathā bhartṛvrate sthitām॥15-46-6॥
But I do not grieve for Gandhari, the illustrious one, whose son has been slain, who has attained the world of her husband, and who has remained steadfast in her vow to her husband. (15-46-6)
pṛthām eva tu śocāmi yā putra-aiśvaryam ṛddhimat | utsṛjya su-mahad-dīptam vanavāsam arocayat ॥15-46-7॥
But I grieve for Pṛthā alone, who, giving up the great and splendid prosperity of her sons' sovereignty, chose a life in the forest. (15-46-7)
dhig-rājyam idam asmākaṃ dhig-balaṃ dhik-parākramaṃ। kṣatra-dharmaṃ ca dhig-yasmān mṛtā jīvāmahe vayam॥15-46-8॥
Shame upon this kingdom of ours, shame upon strength, shame upon valor. Shame upon our kṣatriya duty and upon us, that we continue to live when those (others) have died. (15-46-8)
susūkṣmā kila kālasya gatir dvijavarottama. yat samutsṛjya rājyaṃ sā vanavāsam arocayat ॥15-46-9॥
O best of excellent twice-born, the course of time is indeed very subtle; for she, having completely abandoned the kingdom, chose life in the forest. (15-46-9)
yudhiṣṭhirasya jananī bhīmasya vijayasya ca। anāthavat-kathaṁ dagdhā iti muhyāmi cintayan॥15-46-10॥
Thinking, I am bewildered as to how the mother of Yudhiṣṭhira, Bhīma, and Vijaya was burned like an orphan. (15-46-10)
vṛthā santoṣito vahniḥ khāṇḍave savyasācinā। upakāram ajānans kṛtaghna iti me matiḥ ॥15-46-11॥
I think Agni was gratified in vain in the Khāṇḍava forest by Savyasācin (Arjuna); for one who does not recognize favor is ungrateful—this is my opinion. (15-46-11)
yatrādahatsa bhagavān mātaraṃ savyasācinaḥ। kṛtvā yo brāhmaṇacchadma bhikṣārthī samupāgataḥ॥ dhig agniṃ dhik ca pārthasya viśrutāṃ satyasaṃdhatām॥ 15-46-12॥
Where the illustrious Savyasācin burnt his own mother—where, having taken the guise of a Brahmin and seeking alms, he approached—fie upon the fire, and also upon the much-praised truthfulness of Pārtha! (15-46-12)
idaṃ kaṣṭataraṃ ca anyad bhagavan pratibhāti me। vṛthā agninā samāyogaḥ yat abhūt pṛthivīpateḥ ॥15-46-13॥
O revered sir, another thing, even more difficult, appears to me: that the association with useless fire occurred to the lord of the earth. (15-46-13)
tathā tapasvinas tasya rājarṣeḥ kauravasya ha। katham evaṃ-vidho mṛtyuḥ praśāsya pṛthivīm imām॥15-46-14॥
Thus, for this ascetic royal sage of the Kaurava line, indeed, how has such a death come to him, after having ruled this earth? (15-46-14)
tiṣṭhatsu mantrapūteṣu tasyāgniṣu mahāvane। vṛthāgninā samāyukto niṣṭhāṃ prāptaḥ pitā mama ॥15-46-15॥
While residing among his mantra-purified fires in the great forest, accompanied by a useless fire, my father reached his end. (15-46-15)
manye pṛthā vepamānā kṛśā dhamani-santatā। hā tāta dharma-rājeti samākrandann mahā-bhaye ॥15-46-16॥
I think Pṛthā, trembling and thin with pronounced veins, cried out in great fear, "Alas! O father, O Dharma-rāja!" (15-46-16)
bhīma paryāpnuḥi bhayāditi caiva abhivāśatī। samantataḥ parikṣiptā mātā me'bhūd davāgninā ॥15-46-17॥
O Bhīma, my mother, uttering "Come near out of fear," became surrounded on all sides by the forest fire. (15-46-17)
sahadevaḥ priyas tasyāḥ putrebhyo' dhika eva tu। na caināṃ mokṣayāmāsa vīro mādravatī-sutaḥ ॥15-46-18॥
Sahadeva was truly more beloved to her than her other sons, but the heroic son of Mādravatī did not release her. (15-46-18)
tacchrutvā ruruduḥ sarve samāliṅgya parasparam। pāṇḍavāḥ pañca duḥkhārtā bhūtānīva yugakṣaye ॥15-46-19॥
Having heard that, all the five Pāṇḍavas, afficted with grief, wept, embracing each other, like creatures at the end of an age. (15-46-19)
teṣāṃ tu puruṣendrāṇāṃ rudatāṃ ruditasvanaḥ। prāsādābhogasaṃruddho anvarautsīt sa rodasī ॥15-46-20॥
But the sound of weeping of those foremost among men, obstructed by the great extent of the palaces, spread throughout both heaven and earth. (15-46-20)
