04.020
भीमसेन उवाच॥
Bhīmasena said.
धिगस्तु मे बाहुबलं गाण्डीवं फल्गुनस्य च। यत्ते रक्तौ पुरा भूत्वा पाणी कृतकिणावुभौ ॥०४-२०-१॥
Let my arm strength, Gāṇḍīva, and even Pḥalguna be despised—because formerly, your two blood-covered hands were both consecrated with unguents. (04-20-1)
सभायां स्म विराटस्य करोमि कदनं महत्। तत्र मां धर्मराजस्तु कटाक्षेण न्यवारयत् ॥ तदहं तस्य विज्ञाय स्थित एवास्मि भामिनि ॥०४-२०-२॥
Indeed, in the assembly of Virāṭa, I was performing a great slaughter. There, Dharmarāja restrained me with a mere glance. Realizing this, I simply remained there, O fair one. (04-20-2)
यच्च राष्ट्रात्प्रच्यवनं कुरूणामवधश्च यः। सुयोधनस्य कर्णस्य शकुनेः सौबलस्य च ॥०४-२०-३॥
And that expulsion from the kingdom and the destruction of the Kurus—of Suyodhana, Karṇa, Śakuni, and the son of Subala (04-20-3)
दुःशासनस्य पापस्य यन्मया न हृतं शिरः। तन्मे दहति कल्याणि हृदि शल्यमिवार्पितम् ॥ मा धर्मं जहि सुश्रोणि क्रोधं जहि महामते ॥०४-२०-४॥
The fact that I did not take the head of sinful Duḥśāsana burns within my heart like a fixed thorn, O auspicious lady. Do not abandon righteousness, O beautiful-hipped one; give up anger, O wise one. (04-20-4)
इमं च समुपालम्भं त्वत्तो राजा युधिष्ठिरः। शृणुयाद्यदि कल्याणि कृत्स्नं जह्यात्स जीवितम् ॥०४-२०-५॥
If King Yudhishthira were to hear this reproach from you, O auspicious lady, he might entirely give up his life. (04-20-5)
धनञ्जयो वा सुश्रोणि यमौ वा तनुमध्यमे। लोकान्तरगतेष्वेषु नाहं शक्ष्यामि जीवितुम् ॥०४-२०-६॥
O beautiful-hipped and slender-waisted one, whether it be Arjuna or the twin sons of Yama—if they have departed to other worlds, among them I am not able to live. (04-20-6)
सुकन्या नाम शार्याती भार्गवं च्यवनं वने। वल्मीकभूतं शाम्यन्तमन्वपद्यत भामिनी ॥०४-२०-७॥
The illustrious lady named Sukanya, daughter of Śāryāti, approached Cyavana, the descendant of Bhṛgu, who was lying quietly in the forest, having become encased in an anthill. (04-20-7)
नाडायनी चेन्द्रसेना रूपेण यदि ते श्रुता। पतिमन्वचरद्वृद्धं पुरा वर्षसहस्रिणम् ॥०४-२०-८॥
If you have heard of Nāḍāyanī and Indrasenā, in that form, she formerly followed her aged husband who was a thousand years old. (04-20-8)
दुहिता जनकस्यापि वैदेही यदि ते श्रुता। पतिमन्वचरत्सीता महारण्यनिवासिनम् ॥०४-२०-९॥
If you have heard of Vaidehī, the daughter of Janaka, Sītā followed her husband, who was dwelling in the great forest. (04-20-9)
रक्षसा निग्रहं प्राप्य रामस्य महिषी प्रिया। क्लिश्यमानापि सुश्रोणी राममेवान्वपद्यत ॥०४-२०-१०॥
Having suffered oppression by the demon, the beloved queen of Rāma, though tormented, with beautiful hips, followed Rāma alone. (04-20-10)
लोपामुद्रा तथा भीरु वयोरूपसमन्विता। अगस्त्यमन्वयाद्धित्वा कामान्सर्वानमानुषान् ॥०४-२०-११॥
Lopamudra, timid and endowed with age and beauty, having abandoned all non-human desires due to her association with Agastya. (04-20-11)
यथैताः कीर्तिता नार्यो रूपवत्यः पतिव्रताः। तथा त्वमपि कल्याणि सर्वैः समुदिता गुणैः ॥०४-२०-१२॥
Just as these renowned women, who are beautiful and devoted to their husbands, so too you, O auspicious one, are endowed with all virtues. (04-20-12)
मादीर्घं क्षम कालं त्वं मासमध्यर्धसंमितम्। पूर्णे त्रयोदशे वर्षे राज्ञो राज्ञी भविष्यसि ॥०४-२०-१३॥
Do not endure a long time—just a period equal to one and a half months. When the thirteenth year is completed, you will become the queen of the king. (04-20-13)
द्रौपद्युवाच॥
Draupadī said.
आर्तयैतन्मया भीम कृतं बाष्पविमोक्षणम्। अपारयन्त्या दुःखानि न राजानमुपालभे ॥०४-२०-१४॥
O Bhīma, this shedding of tears has been done by me, the distressed one; unable to endure these sufferings, I do not blame the king. (04-20-14)
विमुक्तेन व्यतीतेन भीमसेन महाबल। प्रत्युपस्थितकालस्य कार्यस्यानन्तरो भव ॥०४-२०-१५॥
Let go of what has been relinquished and what has passed, O mighty Bhīmasena. Be wholly present for the task at hand in the present moment. (04-20-15)
ममेह भीम कैकेयी रूपाभिभवशङ्कया। नित्यमुद्विजते राजा कथं नेयादिमामिति ॥०४-२०-१६॥
Here, on account of my terrible Kaikeyi, with the suspicion that (I) surpass her in beauty, the king is always troubled, thinking, 'How can I take this woman along?' (04-20-16)
तस्या विदित्वा तं भावं स्वयं चानृतदर्शनः। कीचकोऽयं सुदुष्टात्मा सदा प्रार्थयते हि माम् ॥०४-२०-१७॥
Having realized her feelings and being a liar himself, this Kīcaka, who is very wicked-minded, always seeks me. (04-20-17)
तमहं कुपिता भीम पुनः कोपं नियम्य च। अब्रुवं कामसंमूढमात्मानं रक्ष कीचक ॥०४-२०-१८॥
Then I, though angered, O Bhima, again restraining my anger, spoke to my desire-deluded self, 'Protect me, O Kīcaka.' (04-20-18)
गन्धर्वाणामहं भार्या पञ्चानां महिषी प्रिया। ते त्वां निहन्युर्दुर्धर्षाः शूराः साहसकारिणः ॥०४-२०-१९॥
I am the wife of the Gandharvas, the beloved queen-consort of five. They, invincible, heroic and daring, would slay you. (04-20-19)
एवमुक्तः स दुष्टात्मा कीचकः प्रत्युवाच ह। नाहं बिभेमि सैरन्ध्रि गन्धर्वाणां शुचिस्मिते ॥०४-२०-२०॥
Thus, when addressed, the wicked Kīcaka replied: "I am not afraid, O Sairandhrī, of the Gandharvas, O one with a pure smile." (04-20-20)
शतं सहस्रमपि वा गन्धर्वाणामहं रणे। समागतं हनिष्यामि त्वं भीरु कुरु मे क्षणम् ॥०४-२०-२१॥
Whether a hundred or even a thousand Gandharvas assemble in battle, I will slay them; fearful one, just give me a moment. (04-20-21)
इत्युक्ते चाब्रुवं सूतं कामातुरमहं पुनः। न त्वं प्रतिबलस्तेषां गन्धर्वाणां यशस्विनाम् ॥०४-२०-२२॥
When this had been spoken, I, overcome by desire, again said to the charioteer: "You are not a match for those glorious Gandharvas." (4-20-22)
धर्मे स्थितास्मि सततं कुलशीलसमन्विता। नेच्छामि कञ्चिद्वध्यन्तं तेन जीवसि कीचक ॥०४-२०-२३॥
I always abide in righteousness and am endowed with family virtue; I do not wish anyone to be killed, and because of that, you are alive, Kīcaka. (04-20-23)
एवमुक्तः स दुष्टात्मा प्रहस्य स्वनवत्तदा। न तिष्ठति स्म सन्मार्गे न च धर्मं बुभूषति ॥०४-२०-२४॥
When thus addressed, that wicked-minded one laughed aloud at that time, and did not remain on the right path, nor did he wish for righteousness. (04-20-24)
पापात्मा पापभावश्च कामरागवशानुगः। अविनीतश्च दुष्टात्मा प्रत्याख्यातः पुनः पुनः ॥ दर्शने दर्शने हन्यात्तथा जह्यां च जीवितम् ॥०४-२०-२५॥
One who is sinful in soul, of sinful nature, under the sway of passion and desire, undisciplined and corrupt-minded, repeatedly rejected—on sight, again and again, should be slain; thus, I would even give up my life. (04-20-25)
तद्धर्मे यतमानानां महान्धर्मो नशिष्यति। समयं रक्षमाणानां भार्या वो न भविष्यति ॥०४-२०-२६॥
Great righteousness will not perish among those striving to uphold that duty; as long as you are protecting the agreement, your wife will not be lost. (04-20-26)
भार्यायां रक्ष्यमाणायां प्रजा भवति रक्षिता। प्रजायां रक्ष्यमाणायामात्मा भवति रक्षितः ॥०४-२०-२७॥
When the wife is protected, the offspring are protected; when the progeny is protected, the self is protected. (04-20-27)
वदतां वर्णधर्मांश्च ब्राह्मणानां हि मे श्रुतम्। क्षत्रियस्य सदा धर्मो नान्यः शत्रुनिबर्हणात् ॥०४-२०-२८॥
I have heard from those who speak about the duties of the castes and of the Brāhmaṇas. The duty of a Kṣatriya is always solely the destruction of enemies; there is no other. (04-20-28)
पश्यतो धर्मराजस्य कीचको मां पदावधीत्। तव चैव समक्षं वै भीमसेन महाबल ॥०४-२०-२९॥
While Dharmarāja looked on, Kīcaka struck me with his foot, and this happened right in your presence, O mighty-armed Bhīmasena. (04-20-29)
त्वया ह्यहं परित्राता तस्माद्घोराज्जटासुरात्। जयद्रथं तथैव त्वमजैषीर्भ्रातृभिः सह ॥०४-२०-३०॥
Indeed, by your actions I was rescued from that terrible demon Jaṭāsura. Likewise, together with your brothers, you defeated Jayadratha. (04-20-30)
जहीममपि पापं त्वं योऽयं मामवमन्यते। कीचको राजवाल्लभ्याच्छोककृन्मम भारत ॥०४-२०-३१॥
O Bhārata, you destroy even this wicked Kīcaka, who despises me and, favored by the king, has become the cause of my sorrow. (04-20-31)
तमेवं कामसंमत्तं भिन्धि कुम्भमिवाश्मनि। यो निमित्तमनर्थानां बहूनां मम भारत ॥०४-२०-३२॥
O Bhārata, break that one who is thus deluded by desire—who is the cause of many misfortunes for me—like a pot upon a stone. (04-20-32)
तं चेज्जीवन्तमादित्यः प्रातरभ्युदयिष्यति। विषमालोड्य पास्यामि मा कीचकवशं गमम् ॥ श्रेयो हि मरणं मह्यं भीमसेन तवाग्रतः ॥०४-२०-३३॥
If he remains alive when the sun rises in the morning, I will drink poison rather than be under Kīcaka's control. For me, Bhīmasena, death before you is truly better. (04-20-33)
वैशम्पायन उवाच॥
Vaiśampāyana said;
इत्युक्त्वा प्रारुदत्कृष्णा भीमस्योरः समाश्रिता। भीमश्च तां परिष्वज्य महत्सान्त्वं प्रयुज्य च ॥ कीचकं मनसागच्छत्सृक्किणी परिसंलिहन् ॥०४-२०-३४॥
Having said thus, Kṛṣṇā wept, leaning on Bhīma's chest. Bhīma, embracing her and offering great consolation, mentally went towards Kīcaka, licking the corners of his mouth. (04-20-34)
