04.020
Bhīmasena said.
Let my arm strength, Gāṇḍīva, and even Pḥalguna be despised—because formerly, your two blood-covered hands were both consecrated with unguents. (04-20-1)
Indeed, in the assembly of Virāṭa, I was performing a great slaughter. There, Dharmarāja restrained me with a mere glance. Realizing this, I simply remained there, O fair one. (04-20-2)
And that expulsion from the kingdom and the destruction of the Kurus—of Suyodhana, Karṇa, Śakuni, and the son of Subala (04-20-3)
The fact that I did not take the head of sinful Duḥśāsana burns within my heart like a fixed thorn, O auspicious lady. Do not abandon righteousness, O beautiful-hipped one; give up anger, O wise one. (04-20-4)
If King Yudhishthira were to hear this reproach from you, O auspicious lady, he might entirely give up his life. (04-20-5)
O beautiful-hipped and slender-waisted one, whether it be Arjuna or the twin sons of Yama—if they have departed to other worlds, among them I am not able to live. (04-20-6)
The illustrious lady named Sukanya, daughter of Śāryāti, approached Cyavana, the descendant of Bhṛgu, who was lying quietly in the forest, having become encased in an anthill. (04-20-7)
If you have heard of Nāḍāyanī and Indrasenā, in that form, she formerly followed her aged husband who was a thousand years old. (04-20-8)
If you have heard of Vaidehī, the daughter of Janaka, Sītā followed her husband, who was dwelling in the great forest. (04-20-9)
Having suffered oppression by the demon, the beloved queen of Rāma, though tormented, with beautiful hips, followed Rāma alone. (04-20-10)
Lopamudra, timid and endowed with age and beauty, having abandoned all non-human desires due to her association with Agastya. (04-20-11)
Just as these renowned women, who are beautiful and devoted to their husbands, so too you, O auspicious one, are endowed with all virtues. (04-20-12)
Do not endure a long time—just a period equal to one and a half months. When the thirteenth year is completed, you will become the queen of the king. (04-20-13)
Draupadī said.
O Bhīma, this shedding of tears has been done by me, the distressed one; unable to endure these sufferings, I do not blame the king. (04-20-14)
Let go of what has been relinquished and what has passed, O mighty Bhīmasena. Be wholly present for the task at hand in the present moment. (04-20-15)
Here, on account of my terrible Kaikeyi, with the suspicion that (I) surpass her in beauty, the king is always troubled, thinking, 'How can I take this woman along?' (04-20-16)
Having realized her feelings and being a liar himself, this Kīcaka, who is very wicked-minded, always seeks me. (04-20-17)
Then I, though angered, O Bhima, again restraining my anger, spoke to my desire-deluded self, 'Protect me, O Kīcaka.' (04-20-18)
I am the wife of the Gandharvas, the beloved queen-consort of five. They, invincible, heroic and daring, would slay you. (04-20-19)
Thus, when addressed, the wicked Kīcaka replied: "I am not afraid, O Sairandhrī, of the Gandharvas, O one with a pure smile." (04-20-20)
Whether a hundred or even a thousand Gandharvas assemble in battle, I will slay them; fearful one, just give me a moment. (04-20-21)
When this had been spoken, I, overcome by desire, again said to the charioteer: "You are not a match for those glorious Gandharvas." (4-20-22)
I always abide in righteousness and am endowed with family virtue; I do not wish anyone to be killed, and because of that, you are alive, Kīcaka. (04-20-23)
When thus addressed, that wicked-minded one laughed aloud at that time, and did not remain on the right path, nor did he wish for righteousness. (04-20-24)
One who is sinful in soul, of sinful nature, under the sway of passion and desire, undisciplined and corrupt-minded, repeatedly rejected—on sight, again and again, should be slain; thus, I would even give up my life. (04-20-25)
Great righteousness will not perish among those striving to uphold that duty; as long as you are protecting the agreement, your wife will not be lost. (04-20-26)
When the wife is protected, the offspring are protected; when the progeny is protected, the self is protected. (04-20-27)
I have heard from those who speak about the duties of the castes and of the Brāhmaṇas. The duty of a Kṣatriya is always solely the destruction of enemies; there is no other. (04-20-28)
While Dharmarāja looked on, Kīcaka struck me with his foot, and this happened right in your presence, O mighty-armed Bhīmasena. (04-20-29)
Indeed, by your actions I was rescued from that terrible demon Jaṭāsura. Likewise, together with your brothers, you defeated Jayadratha. (04-20-30)
O Bhārata, you destroy even this wicked Kīcaka, who despises me and, favored by the king, has become the cause of my sorrow. (04-20-31)
O Bhārata, break that one who is thus deluded by desire—who is the cause of many misfortunes for me—like a pot upon a stone. (04-20-32)
If he remains alive when the sun rises in the morning, I will drink poison rather than be under Kīcaka's control. For me, Bhīmasena, death before you is truly better. (04-20-33)
Vaiśampāyana said;
Having said thus, Kṛṣṇā wept, leaning on Bhīma's chest. Bhīma, embracing her and offering great consolation, mentally went towards Kīcaka, licking the corners of his mouth. (04-20-34)
